The Beginning of 2024

 As I write this on November 2nd year, 2023. I have never made a blog, nor have I been much of a writer, but I think I want an outlet for my ideas and thoughts that live in the digital space. 

I named the blog Question Everything because, one, I have a Virigl postcard that reads as such, and two why not take on that approach. QUESTION EVERYTHING.

fuck this shit.. honestly and truly. fuck it all. at this point i' beyond angry and mad at life. Im hopeless I'm lost I'm in a place id never though tid be here with no job no source of income no leads no no thingjust pain. pain and disappointment in myself like where did I go wrong when did I make such a error in judgment. my life was full of hope and promise all wanted to do was to work in advertising to become an ad guy and for a beirf moment I was there I was living my dream and then I got fired and then laid off. now I can't get an interview to save my life I consistently thunk about my ex and was that the person Im supposed to be with was i such and idot that I will never be happy again will my mother ever make a full recovery will i nverr know what happiness is or will the pain only continue. I've lost things i love this year i lost my way some how I've lost my confidence in myself and my own vision on way in life Ive become a shadow of who i once was or what I'm meant to be don't see a man of worth in front of me i see a man of dislosion a man of sarrow. where do i go for help where is the answer i seek where is the way out can i still achieve or will this all be for not be a mire glimpse in a life wasted a talent wasted a spirit broken I've never felt more alone or lower in my life. i thought I've have it figured out by now and it seems I'm only slipping further and further away. i honestly don't know what to do there's only one person I'm living for and that's my mother I can't leave her out her by herself with no one to look after her so i continue to push just for that one reason but beside her I'm done with all this shit i honestly and truly hate it here and have now reason to see otherwise. the lies the fake the tell you one thing and do another I'm over it I'm done i just want to start over i don't know what i need to do to change my reality i really don't and that's the scary part not having a plan not having a way out not knowing where the light is where the salvation is from the pain from the arrow from the heartbreak from the continued pressure to become more than what you art maybe it was written for me to loss maybe am i am supposed to be alone maybe I am suppose to be a lose maybe I am nothing at maybe that's the lesson accept your nothingness embrace the zero value this world is what it is and maybe i am what i am